death shall have no dominion

2003-07-19T20:50:00.000+08:00

I txted Max yesterday and asked for the hotties' name. I even got his number! I wonder what TJ stands for? --- Oh my God, Timothy James! Ha ha ha ha ha! I called up Miyuki and asked her if it was ok to ask Max for "Golem's" name with out giving him an umprofesional impresion. So I said that I needed his number because I wanted to ask if the tatoo he was supposed to customise for us was done yet. Plausible enough don't you think? Well, luckyly that was all I had to say. That night I couldn't find it in me to send a message to TJ. Duh, I didn't even give him my name. How could I be sure that he still remembered who I was? So the following night, I texted him and said that I was the girl who went looking for Max the day before yesterday. I gave him my name and I appologised for forgeting introducing my self. This is the part where I'm supposed to be his official text mate but no~~~~~~! He didn't reply. Maybe he was already asleep concidering it was a little past 11 when I texted him. Then, I texted him again. Twice in fact. Still no reply. In all my teen age years, I have never been turned down. I hate to conclude that and I won't because it would be mathemetically incorrect. If any thing is wrong with any one I strongly believe that there must be something wrong with him. I'm a fucken catch baby!

currently listening to: Highly Evolved - The Vines

2003-07-13T19:58:00.000+08:00

My councelor is sooo doing it on purpose. He stood me up. I waited the hole freagin' day for him to walk into the class room and pull me out. He was abscent. Why the hell would he have to go through the entire facade of reminding me that I was scheduled for an appointment if he was going to blow me off any way? What the fuck are stright guys thinking??? No, on second thought I wouldn't want to know. I wish *with fingers crossed* that my gay spells screwed up last night. Otherwise, it might take me another three years in solitude before I fall inlove again. Actually, I'm convinced that I already am, I just don't want to be inlove alone any more. I had a good chance of making things better last night but I was just too chiken shit to take a chance and set a score instead of worrying about all the other less pleasant possibilities. That was the wrong time to think before acting. I usually do the opposite. At least it isn't the last time I'm ever going to see him. I'm not devoid of a second chance. Loop hole of the day huh? Okay, I'm being vague. Yesterday, I went to Festival Mall with Daryl to get another tatoo (snake sceleton wrap around). Apparently, Max, my tatoo artist wasn't in, but we hung around for a while, browsing the magazenes. One of the caricature artists who worked there was nice enough to talk to us, helping kill time. He asked us who our artist was, and I actually remembered his name concidering I poped a pill. Then he told me that he recognized the tatoo on my lower back to be Max's work. I was staring at blank sheets after that. I beckoned Daryl to come closer to me so that I could whisper into his ear with out revealing anything in the open. He just nodded like I didn't have to tell him. Whispering didn't do any good after all. We decided to walk around while waiting for Max to arrive after --- lets just nik name him Golem, (but that dosn't mean he looks like -the- Golem perse, it just so happened that he was drawing a caricature of Golem) texted him. We talked over a couple of Fraps in Starbucks. I asked Daryl if he thought Golem liked me and again he just gave me that nod like it was obvious. I wanted to hear it come out of his mouth so I asked the same question which I slightly re-phrased. He said that he didn't think Golem didn't like me, he just might be the shy type. The words weren't inspiring enough to get the adrenalin rushing through my veins. We ploted the perfect plan to hit on Golem in an inconspicuous way but that was unfortunately labor lost. When we returned to check up on Max, he still wasn't there so we just left. No name, no number, notta. We watched Terminator 3 instead of 28 Days Later. Daryl could cheat his age back when he was a minor but some people can't. I was starving after the movie so we ordered a pizza and dined in Don Henrico's for dinner. I smoked a few cigarettes with a double-espresso in Santis before we called a cab. Then I was home. I couldn't sleep. Maybe it was the cafeine grenade. What was his name?

currently listening to: Saturday Night - Suede

2003-07-02T21:33:00.000+08:00

I don't remember the last time it rained. The past few days have been dry and hot. I wish it would presipitate. I woke up early this morning. Usually I'm not up untill 10:00 am since classes start at 12:45. I had hot tea with toast for breakfast. It's been a long time since I ate breakfast. It's been a long time since I've done a lot of things... I miss alot of things... I miss oatmeal! I'm working on a comic - shhhh, I mean it! Wha~~~t?! Fine. Sheesh! Okey, a new port pholio. There, better? Nothing much of interest today. Same old same old. My councelor scheduled me for a session on Friday. Yes, he noticed... and he should have three weeks before that. I mean c'mon! You would, right? Who wouldn't? All he ever does is hide out in the counceling room and sleep the day away. Surves him right that my Home Econimics teacher pulls him out to do the lecturing. Man... he looks worse than any of my stoned class mates. Huh... layout, what layout? Oh, ummm... you guys'll just have to deal with whatever crappyness this one has to offer while I'm still tying to find enough time to construct my own. Don't over expect. It'll be simple beyond immagination. What do you expect form someone who's enrolled in two schools?

You're Jane Lane! You are cool, and very artistic.

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2003-07-01T21:29:00.000+08:00

Hmmm... I was on the phone the other night talking to Miyuki and she seems to be handleing the break-up pretty smoothly. I never thought it would be that fast. I was counting on a good 5 months or even more before she finally reached sanity. Ummm... maybe it's just that I didn't handle my own break-up as gracefully as she did. Good for her I guess...
My dad bought me an electric guitar last week. It just got here a couple of days ago. My aunt droped it off our place on her way to the house of my dad's mother. She stayed for quite a while. I made her a cup of winter mint tea because we ran out of Coke. I think she was trying to get a message through to my mom from my dad and what not.
School... the fourth year class room was made into a boxing ring yesterdy. One of the boys, (there are only two boys in that class mind you) flipped out on the other and started swareing and throwing punches, hitting nothing but air. Some people know who I'm talking about. Okey I'll stop teasing. Claudia and Dave were picking on JP in a playfull sort of way like calling him funny names and shit then, all of a suuden JP gets off his seat and goes for Dave. Talk about freaky... It was a lot less wierd than dumb if you ask me.
The Philippines is a fucked up place to live in... well at least for two of my friends. Kince's allowance dosn't really go far. Imagine having to deal with 50 pesos for comuting to school, lunch and comuting back from school every day. Told you so... any way I recieved a text message from my ever so pissed at the world onichan this morning saying that his allowance is sadly equivalent to Kince's. What more could I do than to suggest he bring a sandwich or something for lunch so that he wouldn't go hungry. I was in school at the time... and besides I'm not venting material. Well sometimes--- fine, most of the time I can blurt out the sillyest things.
I think that's about it...

Congrats! You're Twin #1! ...who would've thunk
it...

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2003-06-30T20:55:00.000+08:00

I decided to go ahead and buy my self a copy of Haruki Murakami's Sputnik Sweetheart last Saturday. Actually I was planning on getting something written by Neil Gaiman or Ann Rice... I've been reading way too much Japanese related material. It's just that a story about a school teacher who has an affair with his student's mother just to get off because his best friend; the woman he's really inlove with is apparently attracted to a married woman seemed intriguing to me. I started reading half of the book the moment I got home and slept at about three in the morning then I finished the other half the next morning or the same morning--- whatever. Must read Norweigian Wood! In other news, most of my friends developed this goth fixation over night which I find kind'o creepy. Imagine preppy Assumptionistas going "y'know like du~~~h" in wardrobes you see in movies like The Craft. I remember last year the trend was to be trashy like those California laid back tie die skater kids. I think they even made an MTV becoming-ish music video which they shot in May's house near Fort Bonifacio. Maybe the whole gothness of it all started when Queen Of The Damned came out. I on the other hand, like to dress the way I feel like dressing. May it be preppy, trashy, hippy, goth... You'd never catch me acting all hagard and shit in an argyle pull over. It may seem like I'm in some sort of delirium but wouldn't it look so silly not to dress according to mood? After all fashion is an expression of self. Right? Right you are!

currently listening to: The Beautiful People - Marilyn Manson

Graver

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2003-06-27T22:00:00.000+08:00

I'm not too frustrated about not being able to get out of the house this Saturday, because even if I wasn't grounded I'd rather stay home anyway. Y'know it's not a good idea to run around when you're sick and bleeding. Sorry for the inconvenient terminology. Good news is that my mom and I made up. It isn't new but at least it's good. I've had enough of bad news. Ever since my dad relapsed I've been a little distracted. My filipino teacher was giving us a lecture on some short story and he mentioned - "Latay Sa Katawan"; a free verse poem that he wrote during his college years. He told us that it won the first prize in some literature contest when he was a PNU student. After he explained what had inspired him to write it I suddenly felt so uncomfortable. I decided to forget about how my dad screwed things over not just for my mom and I but for every one who was involved as well during his graduation from Recovery Circle. After all you can't deny what you were born into no matter how much you wish that you weren't. Then after everything that was said and done I thought that things were about to change. I guess I put too much faith into it. I don't intend on doing anything about it. I've done my part. It's not my problem anymore.

currently listening to: Smoke - Natalie Imbruglia

2003-06-26T20:16:00.000+08:00

I havn't been in good terms with my mom. We had an argument a couple of days ago. It wasn't about anything major, but I got so pissed at her. Miyuki called me up and I started bitching about her. It just so happened that she was right behind me and thus my week end is fucked. The next day I tryed to appologise via text. It didn't go too well so I sort of ended up crying since there wasn't anything else I could do about it. When I got home, I did my home work and read a book. It was late and I couldn't sleep. There wasn't any one else I could call at 11:30 pm except Kince since he follows the undead's biological clock. I told him about how screwd things were but instead of sympathiseing with me he threw a line that everyone throws to their friends who give life the finger.
"Some people have bigger problems."
I found out that his mom ran away. He told me that while she was in the US she quit her job and sort of called to tell them not to look for her. So he's staying with his dad here, and his aunt which he describes as worse than my grand mother is now in charge of their house hold. If any one's worse than my grand mother that would be Daryl's grand mother. Ok maybe he was giving me living proof and I don't have anything against it. Actually I feel sorry for him, but it dosn't make me feel any better.

2003-06-23T21:14:00.000+08:00

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2003-06-23T20:59:00.000+08:00

I'm starting to collect the graphic novels of The Sandman, written by Neil Gaiman. I bought VolumeIX: The Kindly Ones in Bibliarch when I went to G4 yesterday. They only had volumes XI to X. I'm hoping that the Power Books branch in Pasay Road has the first few. You might bump into me in ATC if ever any of you guys are planning to hang out there next week end. The Power Books in G4 ran out of The Death Books so I'm checking out the one in ATC just in case they have them.

I wasn't very happy with the results of some of my friends when I sent them my "How much do you know about Robyn?" quiz. Kris was dangleing at the bottom of the score board. I was expecting she knew at least more about me than just one out of ten. Kince had a plausible 50. Daryl and Claudia made it to the top of the list with a tie. I was so sure they would be the ones with the most mistakes, even if they're one of my closest friends. Some people just need brain surgery. I'm glad that Daryl got my birth day right for the first time in three years! Jesus Christ... The only people who's results I'm still waiting for are Ana's and Miyuki's. Will they beat the defending champions, or will they share the same fate as my bisexual bud Kris? Hmmm...

School still does not cease to suck. My history teacher is apparantly a Jason wanna be. My councilor has been ignoring me for God knows what reason. My english teacher is growing dumber by the minuite. My math teacher is all mixed up. The fat ass big mouth Mr. Ochoa is still a fat ass big mouth. My new class mates are ten times the losers my old class mates were. I have to wait in school for at least an hour ALONE for the bus to bring me home, and by the time I get there I don't have any more time to do any thing else but home work. At least I don't spend the week ends in school unlike my academic slave of an onichan. Well, once a month for OU dosn't count. I can't wait to become a resident next year! My days of incompitent classmates and teachers will finally be over.

By the way, the shout box will be uploaded with in this week guys. I'm still doing alot of stuff right now... so relax.

SUICIDAL BITCH

You are a depressed child. You need some laughter
in your life. Why, you ask? Cause that frown
don't look good on you, hun!

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2003-06-21T21:45:00.000+08:00

I'd rather not post the highlights of this perticular day. It sucked, and that's all there is to it.The good news is that I have less school work than expected! For a moment I was so sure I'd be at home working my ass off instead of enjoying my Green Tea Frap at the Starbucks outlet in G4, with my posse' during the week ends as usual. Come to think of it a chang would do me good, but not just yet.

Which Member of the Endless Are You?

2003-06-20T21:15:00.000+08:00

It's been about over a week since I asked Kince to give me an account creation code so that I could put up my own LJ but I just couldn't wait. At least I'll be able to mess around with layouts here. Speaking of layouts, I've been thinking about too many things as of late so maybe I'll come up with something within the following week. The only reason why I decided to create a blog on the spot without my own layout is as I said, because "I couldn't wait"! Besides, I'm sure my onichan will be happy to have yet another blog to stock.

You are Beauty.

You are beautiful, whether it be on the inside, the
outside, or both. People are drawn to you as
strongly as you are drawn to the beauty in the
world around you.

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